A Fresh Start

A few months ago, I woke up to the word NEWNESS. I struggled from that time trying to understand the meaning. New boyfriend, New Friends, New Attitude, New What? At the time, I had no idea how this word would play into my lyfe.

Since, I didn't have a boyfriend and needed an attitude adjustment along with new SINGLE friends; I got very excited about NEWNESS..

Recently, everything has taken a halt. NEWNESS seems to mean what? A clean slate. The opportunity to start over. The chance to do better. What?

I developed new SINGLE friends that like the same as me and that's great. My youngest is leaving me on Wednesday. OMG...I'm not taking this very well, either.

Kinda living in boxes. I have to move and can't find a house.
Anyone who really knows me, knows I love this house. Landlord wants to sell, I knew this day was going to happen at some point. Honestly, as much as I love this house its not worth the money and there's is much hidden work that he covers up.

Anyway,
Even with having a boyfriend, NEWNESS is a little scary. I'm letting go and starting all over again. It's scary and exciting at the same time. We all need a second chance now and again, and for me my second chance will be to groove with my friends and journey on a new road. A road to NEWNESS. This road just means, Loving myself enough not to settle for a piece of a man this time.

You know, ladies, sometimes we settle for that piece of a man just so we aren't alone and we get a little d**k here and there. There has to be something else, because that is so boring and tiresome.

For me, A Fresh Start just means I'm starting over. I'm not giving up on love, not yet. I know love exists. And, Now is a good time to try again. This time, I'm much much wiser and I learned from my love mistakes. When someone tells you, don't call me "I'll call you; you respect that and try and move on. Not always easy though, especially when you're in love.

This is my FRESH START. My Fresh start with NEWNESS:
1. New home
2. New Boyfriend (wow, that sounds so profound to say)
3. New Attitude
4. New Single Friends
5. New Appreciation
6. New Ideas
7. New Hangout spots

Boy, I had no idea the word NEWNESS meant all this and meant A FRESH START.
I'm not really sure how I feel about NEWNESS right now. I'm packing and anticipating all those things above not seeing it but believing it all.

East Coast vs. West Coast

I know my damn ass should be packing. Just need to jot down my thoughts, real quick before I forget. Ya'll know ole timers is setting in, lol.

Anyway,

I was thinking about the East Coast and my experience out in Cali. Why is it that the people over there seem to be alot more laid back and carefree?

Why is it that West coast peeps seem to be angry, mean and fearful? Really, what's so different in the two areas that makes peeps behave and think so differently?

Here's a scenerio: I went to the bar downstairs at my hotel in Cali and all the tables were taken. So, I walked up to the bar and there was this drink sitting there but no one in the seat. I asked the gentlemen, was anyone sitting there? He turned and said, No. "But, I would love for you to." I never heard anyone say that before and the best part was that after geniune conversation, he was born in Cali but lives in Philadelphia. Small world, I know.

He was a real gentleman and never once carried a Thug like conversation or ghetto minded attitude. His statement lefted a lasting impression on me and I will never forget it. "No, But I would love for you to." What the hell, I thought he gave me a nice innocent compliment.

You don't get that here. Men here in West Coast or at least in Wheeling, Ohio, PA seem to behave differently towards women. At least all the ones I met. Seem to be thuggish, ghetto minded or they treat women as if we don't deserve.

I'm just wondering what the difference is on East Coast vs West? Is it the air or water? Really, what is it?
The peeps over there just seem to be very laid back and very carefree.

Clueless on the differences, but left a lasting impression on my Stella moment.

It's so nice to see

I'm getting antzy...Can't want to see them!


Music video | Family Reunion video

Take me back Ojays-Whispers and Johnny Gill SING TO MY BODY, baby!

Behind every Good Man...

I cannot promise you that I will not make mistakes
I cannot promise you that I will not have many different moods
I cannot promose you that I will not hurt your feelings sometimes
I cannot promise you that I will not be erratic
I cannot promise you that I will always be strong
I cannot promise you that my faults will not show
but,
I do promise you that I will always be supportive of you
i do promise you that I will share all my thoughts and feelings with you
I do promise you that I wil give you freedom to be yourself
I do promise you that I will understand you and not judge you
I do promise you that I will be completely honest with you
I do promise you that I will laugh and cry with you
I do promise you that I will help you achieve all your goals
I do promise you that I will communicate with you
but,
most of all
I do promise you that I will love you unconditionally.

poem by: Susan Schutz

The Stud Meter

Ladies, ladies

There are many times we wake up and/or go to sleep when we find ourselves (sometimes) dreaming/fantasizing of our favorite sexist actors/rappers. We all have our different opinions as far as who we each believe is sexier... these men can do me anytime day or night.


Totally turning me on...meow

3SUM

There's so much hype about a 3sum that I thought I would add to it. Sure its the every man's fantasy and maybe for some the every woman's dream. I have a friend that actually participated and unfortunately, her marriage was destroyed because of it.

Somethings especially bedroom headboard banging, should be left sacred for just the two of you and with no one else.


The 3sum, I think should be just this simple:
1. Knowing
2. Believing
3. Loving

Know who you are,
believe in who you are and who you are is enough
Love yourself deeply

There's no better threesome!!!!

One Step Closer

Cali had a Steve Harvey Store, ya'll!

Between Steve Harvey and Diddy, I'm not sure who's line of clothing I like best. I was so excited, walking through Steve Harvey's store in Long Beach.

I always said that my man would have at least one of his suits. I couldn't believe the store was right downtown, right there for me to see. Right Before my eyes. Made me believe even stronger that I'm just one step closer.

This man goes from comedy, to talk shows, to hosting, to clothing to writing books. He is an amazing man!!

His line of clothing is better up in person. Damn, to touch the material it just felt sooo damn good and sooo damn real.

God allowed me to see, It's happening for real. I'm One step closer! One step closer.
Cali had a Steve Harvey Store, ya'll!